We've decided on a nursery theme!

We decided on this set and it just so happens the set is called "Madison" so we got a good feel of what it would look like with Madison letters on the wall and what not! The bedding set is 9 pieces... Crib comforter, crib bumper, 2 window valances, crib skirt, fitted sheet, diaper stacker, toy bag, and a decorative pillow. We will also be purchasing the clothes hamper, changing pad cover, mobile, floor rug, and matching baby blanket. The letters are out of stock but if they become available before she gets here we'll probably purchase those too. We decided against the window treatment panels, the three wall hanging decorations, the lamp shade, and the bordering wall paper.

Our First Trip to Labor and Delivery

So tonight I started having a lot of discharge and it was pink tinged... I called my midwife and she told me to go to the hospital to be checked out. I was having about 5 contractions an hour but I wasn't dilated. Maddy Bug is doing fine, jumping all over the place. I tested negative for the amniotic test so my water wasn't ruptured but the doctor did see a lot of watery pink tinged discharge. They also did a FFN test and that came back negative as well. I had a few done with my last pregnancy and they always came back negative and my water just broke anyways at 32 weeks so they are on "high alert" for me at the maternity ward and so is my midwife. I have to go in and see her this week and she's probably going to send me to a specialist once a week to get cervical length ultrasounds done until the baby is born. She's probably putting me on some contraction meds as well and I will most likely be seeing her every other week or every week until Maddy comes. The discharge has stopped thankfully and I'm so happy Maddy is ok!

Update on my crazy life!

Well we just couldn't take it anymore... They ended up wanting us to pay ALL of the bills INCLUDING three months of their past due. It would be cheaper to have our own place and pay the bills than to pay all of theirs so we just up and left. A lot less stress now. We are staying with my grandparent's and it will be nice to be with family during the holidays.

I do have good news though! My Lexie is home!!!!!!!!! Her dad brought her to Idaho to his mom's because his girlfriend has a felony first degree burglary warrant. She is now safe with her mommy and sisters! It's been difficult to adjust because when she was with her dad, he didn't discipline her AT ALL. She doesn't listen, she cries if she doesn't get her way (which is a lot), it takes her 2 hours to actually fall asleep... After she's FINALLY asleep she wakes up and wants in bed with us... Well there's just not enough room for Chris, her, me and my belly! So she freaks out about that and wakes the other kids up. It's definitely some getting used to and trying to change her routine of things. But things are improving slowly. 

We got Madison's Chicco Keyfit 30 car seat. Decided against the whole travel system because we've never used them in the past. Now we're just waiting on her car seat cover to arrive. We also got her a baby bath which is super cute.

We are very ready for Christmas... Gifts are all bought and neatly wrapped under the tree. I'm so excited to have all my girlies with me for Christmas. Last Christmas Sophie was still in the NICU and now I have all three of them home with us like they should be. Will be posting pics of Christmas soon after. Here is the car seat cover we ordered for Madison at the beginning of December. I'm absolutely in love with it!

Hope you all have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why Can't Things Go Right.... Just Once!

Well I wanted to clear a few things up from my last post and give an update... We are staying with friends right now and we consider ourselves and they consider us, roommates. We don't have a signed agreement or anything because right after we got here, with in a few days they left to visit relatives out of state. We were going to make a lease and sign it when they returned and thought nothing else of it.

Well here's the update... They bumped everything up as you know and today added some other things to the mix... Firstly they are having their mom and sister come back up with them and to stay for two weeks.and they are moving us (my husband, our two children [with a playpen and toddler bed] and myself) to the small room that my girls are currently sharing and barely fit it, while two adults share a HUGE bedroom. This is an issue because we'll be sleeping on an air mattress that has a small pinprick hole (hello! pregnant woman with a bad back!) and we won't have the bathroom that was connected to the room we were in... Another issue is that my girls barely fit in the room let alone a queen sized air mattress on top of that! And Soph still wakes up several times a night for a bottle (given her being a preemie and VERY petite even for her preemie age, doc wants us to keep giving her formula at night to help her grow) and I'm up about 4 times a night to use the bathroom myself.  On top of that, ALL  of our stuff is in there... All of it! The bathroom is full of baby bath toys and all of our bathroom stuff (which is quite a lot) and we need to take it all out for their family. I understand them wanting to have the family, "guests" have their own bathroom.. I really do. I don't want to sound like I'm complaining but I'm just completely shocked that none of this came up until now.

And here's the second "something" they are adding....... We have to pay their PAST BILLS from before we were even here! All of their bills are pat due and they want us to pay half! Plus we paid their whole cable and net bill last month. For it to stay on (and for my husband to be able to put job apps in) we'll probably have to pay the whole thing this month. Thankfully we can support our girls (barely, they need some new clothes and things because they are growing and we haven't been able to buy them yet).. But they have their necessities such as food, diapers for the baby, things like that... So they are taken care of for the most part but I'm worrying about the new baby... How are we going to get everything we need for her when we have more bills than we'd have in a place of our own??? I'm so stressed out right now I can't see straight. I started having contractions really bad and went to the hospital. Fortunately baby is ok and the contractions stopped but not before I had some "funneling" in my cervix. Apparently I'm dialated at the bottom of my cervix but it funnels closed at the top. 

I try my darnedest to be such a good person... I do the best I can, I'm a good mother, wife... I don't do anything bad.... Why can't things just go right for a change? Sorry for the vent... I'm just exhausted and frustrated and scared right now.

Oh almost forgot to add... Chey is staying at my grandma's while our roommate's relatives are in town because I have a feeling I'm not going to be in a great state of mind at this time and don't want her to see me this upset... Of course I'm going to see her every other day and she will be spending Christmas Eve and Christmas with her but I don't want her to see me this upset... And I'm very upset. I've been crying off and on all day and that is not good for her. She needs a good positive environment and I'm sure she'll love spending time with her grandma.

No, no, no, no, NO!

We're staying with friends as I've mentioned in previous posts... Well they just texted us (they are out of town for the holidays right now) and doubled what we're supposed to pay for everything a month... DOUBLED IT! We figured it out and we are going to put literally every last cent we get a month into everything. I'm freaking out! What do we do?! This wasn't the plan and this wasn't what we had all agreed upon when we moved in. We will probably just have enough for diapers for Sophie and some money for gas to make it to my appointments... That's it. How are we supposed to afford a thing for the new baby?! We only have a few things for the baby... Her crib stuff is on LAYAWAY! With doubling what we have to pay, we won't be able to get the stuff out of layaway and we lose most of the money we have down on it if not all of the money. If we don't pay the doubled amount, we have no where to go... I don't even know what to do right now.. I'm freaking out so bad that I can't even cry but boy do I want to.

Gingerbread Houses!!!!!

Yes we did them.... We did NOT finish.... It was a complete and utter failure. We bought four different kits. A house, a town house, a mini village and a train. Chris and I decided to put them together and leave them around as little decorations. We did it while girls were sleeping because we know that would have been a mess. Well, I think it would have been LESS a mess with Cheyanne doing them! We suck at decorating! Like completely fail! I ended up getting mad at the dumb thing and just smushing candy into the roof and Chris... Well I told him JOKINGLY to smash it.... Well he did. Gingerbread flew EVERYWHERE! It's a huge mess... Candy icing, gingerbread everywhere... Fortunately he's cleaning it up while I relax. BIG MESS! Thank goodness we only opened one of the kits, the others will be going back to the store! I was tons of fun though, I laughed so hard throughout the whole process I about peed myself!

Better!

Things have been SO much better. I completely lost it on Chris and I think he finally "heard" me... He hasn't touched the damn video games and is helping A LOT more... Well really, he's not letting me lift a finger. I haven't even had to cook dinner since! He's been cooking and cleaning, letting me sleep in, and helping with the kids! The sleeping in is nice because I only get 1-2 hours of sleep at night. I have horrid insomnia with this pregnancy and when I CAN sleep I'm waking up to switch positions. Pain in the rear, literally! 

Sophie's 1st birthday is coming up and I can't be more excited for my baby! It's crazy to me that in 6 days she will be one year old! We ordered her a cake and got her a few presents, nothing overboard because she's only 1 and Christmas is coming up. We're having a little birthday party on the 7th, her birthday... Nothing too big, just a few family. I'm so excited, I can't wait! Makes me want to cry at the same time though, she doesn't even look like a 1 year old, she looks like a baby! I think that's due to her being premature though. I will definitely post pics!